Life Lessons....

I just need a minute of your time…

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So recently i have just come back from holiday in Spain and as holidays do they help you reflect on everything and its made me realise that as a 25 year old single male who’s working a normal Monday – Friday 08:30/5:00pm job that there is so much of my life that i am frustrated about.

I’m frustrated because i feel stuck in a job that i HATE to pay rent for a house thats not mine, to not really have many true friends, no girlfriend, stuck in a small town with small town mentality and i know that myself and others around me are BIGGER and BETTER than this, and this got me thinking about everything and even you fellow bloggers out there…..

Am i normal for feeling like this and thinking like this? is it bad that i want MORE from life that i am getting? because IF i could (not saying i would) but if i could i would pack my stuff and head for the city/London and just pursuit my dreams of doing music and being in the music industry…Now some of you will say “Well why don’t you just do it?” and thats a great question but I’m always told that we need to make sure we are set here first and i agree but i feel like I’m going to burst sometimes and do something irrational (like i keep dreaming about walking out of my job and giving them a swift and polite F YOU out of the door).

So as i write this, i would love to hear your advice and if any of you have made the big jump and moved somewhere different or far away? or what your thoughts on it are? and if you are reading this feeling the same i ENCOURAGE you to be confident and brave, to not accept leading a normal life and be GREAT, be BOLD and DIFFERENT!, YOU MUST NOT ACCEPT A JOB PURELY FOR THE MONEY YOU MUST LIKE THE JOB!!!!!, You MUST be around people who want you to win and do well!, You must really tune into your surroundings and ask yourself uncomfortable questions sometimes.., See  i want to leave a positive mark on the world and be positive, bring happiness to others and really make a difference and live COMFORTABLY, i want to build something i am proud of and pass on what I’ve learnt and all the mistakes I’ve made that i wish my parents and loved ones would have told me to be careful of etc, But i want you to feel inspired and encouraged by this….i want you to really look deep inside yourself and find your purpose and passion.

Find something you love and that you’re passionate about, find a way to make it into a CAREER for you, take photos, write poems and music, film that video or youtube channel you’ve always wanted, start a fashion line, write a blog, build a business, join that dance class, do that marathon, don’t discourage ANYONE, Be the reason someone wakes up and smiles on a morning, give someone a hug who needs one, tell someone their great, create the life YOU want to live, be the best at whatever it is you love to do. I believe in you and i know we all have greatness within us and i don’t want ANYONE older, younger or the same age to feel the way i feel because its shit and we ALL deserve GREATNESS.

Please Like and Repost this, Tag a friend, Post it on social medias and get it to anyone who needs to read this…

Your Friend Always,

GS xo

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I’ll Show You…

Lyrics:
My life is a movie
And everyone’s watching
So let’s get to the good part
And passed all the non-sense

Sometimes it’s hard to do the right thing
When the pressures is coming down like lightening
It’s like they want me to be perfect
When they don’t even know that I’m hurting
Cause life’s not easy
I’m not made out of steel
Don’t forget that I’m human, don’t forget that I’m real
Act like you know me, but you never will
There’s one thing I know for sure

I’ll show you
I’ll show you
I’ll show you

I’ve got to learn things
Learn them the hard way
Got to see what it feels like
No matter what they say

Sometimes it’s hard to do the right thing
When the pressures is coming down like lightening
It’s like they want me to be perfect
When they don’t even know that I’m hurting
Cause life’s not easy
I’m not made out of steel
Don’t forget that I’m human, don’t forget that I’m real
Act like you know me, but you never will
There’s one thing I know for sure

I’ll show you
I’ll show you
I’ll show you

Cause life’s not easy
I’m not made out of steel
Don’t forget that I’m human, don’t forget that I’m real
Act like you know me, but you never will
There’s one thing I know for sure
I’ll show you

I’ll show you ……

GS x

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Holiday Blues… 

  

Well I’ve just returned from my holiday in a country in Europe and I’m very fortunate that my father owns an apartment there and the flights are cheap so I can travel there!, but spending 8 days there has been one hell of a holiday. 

From playing volleyball at 1am on the beach to long walks, drinks, meeting new people, singing in front of people to exploring new places, these 8 days have been so interesting and fun and now I’m back home, back to the small town mentality, back to the 9-5 KPI, target watching job that’s easy but unfulfilling.

This holiday has made me realise that you need to build a life so good that you don’t need to take a vacation from, or build a life at home that’s so good that when you are on vacation and you return that you aren’t dreading going back, instead you come back with a sense of purpose and ready to take on the world! 

Also I realised that being single for so long kinda made me wish I had someone to share the experience with and how I do miss being with someone but I know that you can’t rush love, you can’t rush things and meeting people. Everything takes time 🙂 

Go travel, see the world, see what’s out there, be brave and be bold, don’t be normal, normal sucks. Change your routine, change your mind and change your life. I’m still on the road to self discovery, to self fulfilment and towards my dream also. 

Just wanted to post and check in with you guys! 

Your Friend,

Gs x

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New Job Adventure and Advice….

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I’m currently seeking a new job, fresh start, more money, new company to represent and work for, to finally be in a suit and not in a uniform! Which will help me pay for all the things I require in my hobbies and music and also go towards all the things I’ve wanted in respects of travelling and dressing nicer etc.

Looking for a job is easier when you have a job, it’s important that you try your best to search/have something in mind, Be patient, make sure that your CV or Resume is 10000000% and you also have a cover letter, network the best you can with employers and recruitment consultants and just get out there

OUT OF SIGHT OUT OF MIND!!!

Be realistic and slowly work yourself up the ladder and apply for LOTS because you will be rejected more than accepted so be prepared for that 🙂

Be positive!!! If you hate the job you’re in right now be blessed that you have a job, think back to where you were a few years ago to where you are now, small baby steps towards a better place for yourself.

Know your worth also, don’t be too “specific” but don’t also degrade yourself you’re better than what you think you are!

Wish me luck guys, I create my own luck but knowing that there’s positive people out there routing for you goes a long way

Keep smiling, Keep Seeing the light in the dark and I love you all… I will let you know if I hear anything

Chase Your Dream and find your passion.

Your Friend Always,

G.S x

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Stronger….

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Just want to thank you to all my followers and friends of WordPress for making me stronger, for having the patience, the love, the comments all the views and the likes of my posts! I’m glad you enjoyed them! At 4000 and 5000 I’m going to do 2 posts that will be a little Q&A and Facts you want to know about me ! So start leaving your questions or things you want to know in the comments and Email me! GentlemanSparks@Gmail.com …

Stay Strong

Love Always

G.S x

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Mr Everything…

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“Aint life so cruel when you’re just not good enough?, aint life so cruel when theres someone else she loves”

Some of us have our idea of “Mr or Mrs Everything” but they don’t really exist. You see you have to look for qualities in a partner like they’re potentially your LIFE MATE, that you’re gunna grow old and develop with, someone who will IMPROVE YOU, will make you feel like a man/woman and will compliment you’re every move and thought.

We spend so much time (more ladies than men) really criticising men what we don’t do and not focusing on what we do do right. I’m not saying EVERY lady does this but it’s some kind of social thing, I have a friend at work, she’s a lovely girl, she’s polite, friendly with guys but not flirty but she ALLLLLLLLWAAAAYYYYSSSS complains about her man, and I even tell her if he’s so rubbish/miserable etc why are you still with him sharing a house and sleeping in the same bed? Is she comfortable? Scared she won’t find someone else or “better”? You tell me, and I’ve talked to so many women who say how much they love their man BUT he plays too much xbox or he spends too much time with his friends or he doesn’t go to the gym! So many couples say all this behind one another’s back but won’t say it to their partner

I’ve been on the recieving end of this many times in respects of what I do and don’t do and I realised that for the amount of time I spent in my relationships I’ve not really felt like a MAN, I’ve been made to feel stupid, useless, untrustworthy, incapable of something and my favourite unintelligent and not “good enough”

This isn’t a rant post at all, just I guess abit of closure and forgiveness that I’m not perfect, I fuck up, infact I mess up so much that it’s a blessing because I’m wise, I’m humble, polite, I like talking and listening to people, I’ve never been someone who puts himself first but I’m investing time in myself more now.

I’ve spent the past 2 years torturing myself and literally wasting my life and time because of what happened (see recent posts new followers) and it’s not fair, no one should do that! I rejected all the love and help that was given to me, it’s crazy that you let someone do that to you, maybe I love too deeply maybe I care too much but it’s who I am, I go all in I give it every inch and fibre of my body that I can and it’s not paid off, but that’s life, you fail and mess up and you’ve just gotta grow from it, it doesn’t mean I’m gunna be dating and sleeping with tonnes of women I’m just gunna get my priorities right and learn from it, if I grow old on my own then let’s have it! I’ll just enjoy my life for what it is and will be!

Losing Scarlett has sucked and still sucks at times but MY life is about ME, and I say it like riding a train, some of you will ride the train with me(and some would even ride the bus) but some of you will get de railed and only want to ride the limo with me, remove negative people from your life, remove poison from your life….

Forgive yourself, be strong, be happy, work through that bucket list you’ve always wanted to do, fuck up, make mistakes and learn from them and grow!

You GROW through what you GO through! – times a healer

How do I know? Because 2 years ago around this time I was crying everyday for about a year after that and what else? I didn’t sleep properly I couldn’t eat, diagnosed with depression, couldn’t go 5 seconds without thinking about something that turned my insides inside out or that made my heart feel like it was being repeatedly stabbed! What do I feel now? Scars that are healing into scar tissue, a body and mind that is getting stronger and confidence and trust in who I am,

Will I love again? Will me and Scarlett get back together? Will my career take off? Will I move away? Will I achieve what I want in life? Who knows but it’s gunna be one hell of a journey…..

You coming with me?

I love you all, always.

Your Friend,

G.S x

P.S email me or drop me a comment! I don’t like feeling that I’m talking to myself I hope my posts help someone out there like some have yours have.

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The Liebster Blog Award

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Well this is going to take some time!  but id like to thank AnnStVincent for nominating me for it!, your blog is amazing so guys check it out!!!

 

Here are MY answers to your questions :).

  1. Why did you start your blog? I started it because my brother suggested doing one and seeing what i would be like writing posts etc, so i thought why the heck not!
  2. Does your Mom read your blog or know it even exists?  HELLLLLLLL NO….
  3. What one thing scares you, and why?   Knowing that one day i wont have many of the people i love around me and being scared of growing up on my own
  4. Do you have “one who got away”?  If so, who is it?    I have……Scarlett ….. as known in the previous posts!
  5. What is your most cherished childhood memory?   Spending time with my mother and brother mainly, he is my best friend and we have literally grown up together more than most brothers do thats why we are so close, weve been through hell and back together
  6. Are you doing what you thought you would do with your life?   Not really, i didnt really dream or plan anything when i was younger…..its kinda why my future is so unclear
  7. What motivates you?   All the things that have hurt me, the people walking out of my life and the ones who told me i couldnt.
  8. What’s #1 on your life “to-do” list?   It used to be have a family and get married romantically, now its to have as little regrets as possible.
  9. Do you have a talent that might surprise your readers?   i dont know if its a surprise? but im an Actor, Singer and Songwriter.
  10. What song makes you the happiest?  My whole playlist!
  11. And in honor of the man who nominated me: who is your favorite muppet, and why?   Kermit….because hes badass!

11 Random Things About Me:

  1. Most of my blog posts are SONG TITLES of my favourite songs or songs i deem relevant!
  2. I was almost professional at soccer/football
  3. I scratch my head in my sleep
  4. I have a twin.
  5. I once was in a choir
  6. People say im a chameleon and can blend in most social situations etc
  7. i never use the word bored to explain how im feeling!
  8. I once waited 3 hours for an ex girlfriend in the dating phase because she was late for our date
  9. Ive never been to a strip club
  10. I listen to music ALL THE TIME!!!!
  11. My favourite movie is the notebook!

Blogs I’m Nominating:

  1. Carissa’s World
  2. Amy Pinkrose
  3. missalyreid
  4. Disordered Self
  5. Midnight Eagle

My Questions for the Nominees:

  1. What is your favourite colour?
  2. If you could live 1 year back from the past what would you choose?
  3. Whats the best advice youve recieved?
  4. What would you tell your younger self if you could ?
  5. Favourite song?
  6. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
  7. Whats are you talented at?
  8. How many times have you been in love?
  9. Do you believe in love at first sight?
  10. Describe GentlemanSparks in 5 words?
  11. How would you describe your personality?

For future Liebster Award recipients, here are the rules:

  • Thank the person who nominated you, and post a link to their blog on your blog.
  • Display the award on your blog — by including it in your post and/or displaying it using a “widget” or a “gadget”. (Note that the best way to do this is to save the image to your own computer and then upload it to your blog post.)
  • Answer 11 questions about yourself, which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you.
  • Provide 11 random facts about yourself.
  • Nominate 5-11 blogs that you feel deserve the award, who have less than 1000 followers. (Note that you can always ask the blog owner this since not all blogs display a widget that lets the readers know this information!)
  • Create a new list of questions for the blogger to answer.
  • List these rules in your post. Once you have written and published it, you then have to inform the people/blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link for them to your post so that they can learn about it (they might not have ever heard of it!)

 

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