Life Lessons....

I just need a minute of your time…

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So recently i have just come back from holiday in Spain and as holidays do they help you reflect on everything and its made me realise that as a 25 year old single male who’s working a normal Monday – Friday 08:30/5:00pm job that there is so much of my life that i am frustrated about.

I’m frustrated because i feel stuck in a job that i HATE to pay rent for a house thats not mine, to not really have many true friends, no girlfriend, stuck in a small town with small town mentality and i know that myself and others around me are BIGGER and BETTER than this, and this got me thinking about everything and even you fellow bloggers out there…..

Am i normal for feeling like this and thinking like this? is it bad that i want MORE from life that i am getting? because IF i could (not saying i would) but if i could i would pack my stuff and head for the city/London and just pursuit my dreams of doing music and being in the music industry…Now some of you will say “Well why don’t you just do it?” and thats a great question but I’m always told that we need to make sure we are set here first and i agree but i feel like I’m going to burst sometimes and do something irrational (like i keep dreaming about walking out of my job and giving them a swift and polite F YOU out of the door).

So as i write this, i would love to hear your advice and if any of you have made the big jump and moved somewhere different or far away? or what your thoughts on it are? and if you are reading this feeling the same i ENCOURAGE you to be confident and brave, to not accept leading a normal life and be GREAT, be BOLD and DIFFERENT!, YOU MUST NOT ACCEPT A JOB PURELY FOR THE MONEY YOU MUST LIKE THE JOB!!!!!, You MUST be around people who want you to win and do well!, You must really tune into your surroundings and ask yourself uncomfortable questions sometimes.., See  i want to leave a positive mark on the world and be positive, bring happiness to others and really make a difference and live COMFORTABLY, i want to build something i am proud of and pass on what I’ve learnt and all the mistakes I’ve made that i wish my parents and loved ones would have told me to be careful of etc, But i want you to feel inspired and encouraged by this….i want you to really look deep inside yourself and find your purpose and passion.

Find something you love and that you’re passionate about, find a way to make it into a CAREER for you, take photos, write poems and music, film that video or youtube channel you’ve always wanted, start a fashion line, write a blog, build a business, join that dance class, do that marathon, don’t discourage ANYONE, Be the reason someone wakes up and smiles on a morning, give someone a hug who needs one, tell someone their great, create the life YOU want to live, be the best at whatever it is you love to do. I believe in you and i know we all have greatness within us and i don’t want ANYONE older, younger or the same age to feel the way i feel because its shit and we ALL deserve GREATNESS.

Please Like and Repost this, Tag a friend, Post it on social medias and get it to anyone who needs to read this…

Your Friend Always,

GS xo

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Purpose…

Well my weekend is over, back to work tomorrow…wishing and hoping for things to change, for work to actually improve and for things to get better and have that feeling of moving forward but sometimes i need to take a step back and really look at things.

I can’t go into details but i can honestly say I’ve seen and I’ve been through some shit, some dark dark places and times in my life but looking back from where i am today, in this very moment I’ve moved forward. Ive had ZERO confidence/self esteem, I’ve had NO money I’ve dealt with a lot of difficult personal demons where at times I’ve punished myself for things that have happened to me or around me.

The beauty of life is the comeback, and the realisation of a purpose. A purpose of knowing where you’re going, what you dream and desire, of you what you truly want in life wether its money a new job your favourite music album or a family with children etc, we all have a dream and we all have shit days and have amazing days and its how you deal with all of it. Take time to truly appreciate all the obstacles you go through and also take a moment not to be so harsh on yourself…Don’t be thinking NEW YEAR NEW ME, start today! take control of your surroundings and be sure to invest time and money into YOURSELF.

If you want to do something GO DO IT!, who cares what other people think?, be unique and stand out from the crowd.

I may be rambling on but I’m just getting off my chest what I’m thinking and if it helps someone or you can resonate with it the please reblog it or comment! i love knowing what you all think and what you experience. Its comforting to know theres good people out there and that we all understand from every and any point of view.

FIND YOUR PURPOSE.

Your Friend Always,

G.S x

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In Love By Now….

I’m supposed to be in love by now, by now
It’s been so long for me, I don’t know how, by now
Been drowning in the sea of broken vows, by now
But I’m supposed to be in love by now, by nowI’ve been chasing my dream, I’ve been chasing you
Running hard but my legs feel weak
I done played every part, I done played a fool
Write the movie, I’ll be your lead

Cause I’m supposed to be in love by now, by now
Well girl you stole my heart now take a bow, by now
In love by now
Well I’m supposed to walk you down the aisle, by now
Change your name and make your parents smile, by now
Leave the Church, make plans to celebrate, by now
A big old house and babies on the way, by now

I’ve been chasing my dream, I’ve been chasing you
Running hard but my legs feel weak
I done played every part, I done played a fool
Write the movie, I’ll be your lead

Well I’m supposed to be in love today, by now
Go through my phone and throw ’em all away, by now
In love by now
Without your love, I want what they say when they write my stories
Without your touch, I’ll never know how it feels to fly
Drown in my emotions, now it’s all on me
Eyes are finally open to love I couldn’t see
Can’t wait ’til I can say bless the day you landed in my arms

I’m supposed to be in love by now
I’m supposed to be in love by now
In love by now….

GS x

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The Proposal…

Lyrics:

If we can’t be happy, can we at least, pretend?
Even if you cannot love me, can you at least just tell me it?
Ain’t that what they all do anyway?, yeah, they kiss each other on the face
They call each other bae, when deep down inside all they feel is pain

So we might as well get married cause ya so sick of me already
You want me to leave already, so hard to believe already, already, already
We might as well get married cause we’re arguing already
You hate my guts already, fell outta love already, already, might as well get married, turn the lights on

Lets smile at each other, so we can please our friends
Cause we both know just how much you care bout impressing them
Cause ain’t that what couples do anyway?, they lie right in each others face
And they call each other bae, when deep down inside all they feel is pain

So we might as well get married cause ya so sick of me already
You want me to leave already, so hard to believe already, already, already
We might as well get married cause we’re arguing already
You hate my guts already, fell outta love already, already, might as well get married, turn the lights on

I buy you a house so you can kick me out
Take my ass to court and tell the judge what I’m ’bout
Don’t forget to tell the kids that they Daddy ain’t shit
Look at how he did ya Momma out there with that outta bitch

Cause we’re arguing already
Fell outta love already, already, might as well get married

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What Life Is About…

I’ve been working at my new place for nearly a month and I start back in a few hours and dya know what? I’m already dreading it, ill be honest with you I’ve realised alot over the past couple of weeks and I’ve really reflected and discovered what’s important to me, so I’m gonna be bold and brutally honest and I hope you all can relate or benefit from hearing what life is about in my eyes.

Happiness
Do NOT sacrifice your happiness and what you love for MONEY, I don’t give a shit what excuses you may tell yourself but you cannot replace TIME, time as in with your partner, your loved ones, your family, your friends.

Stay in bed with your lover a little longer, cherish the small things in life, focus on a career that makes you fire up your belly with excitement, be with someone who creates fireworks in your eyes and heart, save your money work towards your goals and BE HAPPY.

Risks

Take a fucking risk!!!, it’s a massive risk me taking this job and I HATE working Monday to Friday, but I need the money and in a year or 2 guess what, I’m gunna take another risk and quit my job and go towards my goal and dreams.

Take risks in love!, be bold!! Go tell that girl or guy you like them, stop waiting for the right time because there’s NEVER a right time!, look ill never get Scarlett back and for us who have loved so truly and deeply and it’s been longer than a few months can’t just one day go “hey Scarlett guess what? Should have fought for you and I’m still in love with you etc”, I wish I had the answers, I wish I knew where this road has and will take me!

Quit that shitty job and go find something and someone who makes YOU happy! fuck everyone else, your friends and your family because only YOU know what’s right for YOUR life!

I want you all to do me a favour, I want you to write a list of 5 things you want to do this year that are BOLD decisions wether it’s a holiday or quitting your job, finding love/dating again, whatever it is go do it NOW

PASSION

FIND YOUR PASSION, what comes effortless to you? What do you TRULY love? What do you enjoy?, find something that makes you look forward to waking up, take a chance, believe in yourself and support those around you!

This year can be whatever you want it to be, make it a happy and abundant one…for YOUR sakes, you are the one who’s suffering, I’ve loved and I’ve lost, I’ve tortured myself for days months and years and I tell you the biggest pain is regret, don’t have regrets!

I know it seems easier said than done but the first step is always the hardest!

Be kind to someone today, give them your hand, give someone a hug or an ear who needs it!

We are all going through some shit that we know NOTHING about! So be a little kinder today.

It’s important and can make the world and even more beautiful place than it already can be.

I love you all and please reblog, like, tag whoever needs to read this!

I hate that people go through life with no sense of direction or no balls to make a change! It’s all upto you. You are great and powerful beyond your wildest dreams!!!!!

Dream big. Smile lots and take risks. Fall in love, feel every emotion.

I believe in you.

Love always,

GS x

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Today,Tomorrow, Forever

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I use this picture as an example, I don’t care if you’re a male or a female reading this, but this is how you want your partner to look at you.

When your with him and her and wether you can see it, this is true love it’s weird how I observe my friends relationships and situations and I can read wether they’re settling, made, “perfect” for each other, happy, sad no matter what they say and do.

The problem is I don’t know what I’m going to do if I’m honest, I’m so old school and old fashioned that I honestly know that I don’t know how I will now meet someone in the future, because I won’t find someone who will love me and have the same morals and values as me, and do you know what frustrates me and worries me? Is all these couples who when they’re partners aren’t around are commenting on how “fit” and “hot” someone ELSE is! Or acting like they’re single when they’re away from their partners…

Sure have a good time with your friends etc but I just cannot understand it, everytime I’ve been with a woman I’ve been married IN MY MIND, because I want to be THAT loyal, I don’t want or stare at another female, sure I’d speak and be polite etc but I wouldn’t flirt or be THAT GUY who’s always commenting on other women, especially behind my woman’s back.

Plus there’s the fact that I’m still not financially secure and that I don’t feel comfortable with my current job, my music and acting career is going well but not enough to bump into old friends Etc and for me to feel like I’ve moved forward much.

It’s been 2 years and counting I think since I saw and heard anything from Scarlett, still feels weird, still feels like I’ve been stung badly it still gets to me in moments but it has and is lessened.

I sometimes see family’s and couples and I really wanted all that, I wanted to be a father and have a child and have my own home and now that dream post Scarlett has just completely left my mind.

I would love to date again and see who’s out there but I just couldn’t go back to the beginning and start all over, I’ve been talking to girls and women I tried tinder I went our more but somewhere in me just doesn’t feel right with it.

I do feel stupid for it, but maybe I need that moment where I see Scarlett or her with another guy to really hit me in the gut, I need to get back into the gym regular and keep up with my football(soccer to American friends) and just keep pushing towards a better life.

I’m writing this because I know that there’s love out there for everyone and there’s chances everyday, but you have to be careful, there’s thorns dressed as roses and that’s what’s worrying, but I guess we can’t live in fear right?

Keep smiling, stay positive and who knows what will happen in this thing we called life.

I believe everything happens for a reason, fate is a crazy thing sometimes

Love always,

G.S 🌹

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Stronger….

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Just want to thank you to all my followers and friends of WordPress for making me stronger, for having the patience, the love, the comments all the views and the likes of my posts! I’m glad you enjoyed them! At 4000 and 5000 I’m going to do 2 posts that will be a little Q&A and Facts you want to know about me ! So start leaving your questions or things you want to know in the comments and Email me! GentlemanSparks@Gmail.com …

Stay Strong

Love Always

G.S x

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