Life Lessons....

I just need a minute of your time…

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So recently i have just come back from holiday in Spain and as holidays do they help you reflect on everything and its made me realise that as a 25 year old single male who’s working a normal Monday – Friday 08:30/5:00pm job that there is so much of my life that i am frustrated about.

I’m frustrated because i feel stuck in a job that i HATE to pay rent for a house thats not mine, to not really have many true friends, no girlfriend, stuck in a small town with small town mentality and i know that myself and others around me are BIGGER and BETTER than this, and this got me thinking about everything and even you fellow bloggers out there…..

Am i normal for feeling like this and thinking like this? is it bad that i want MORE from life that i am getting? because IF i could (not saying i would) but if i could i would pack my stuff and head for the city/London and just pursuit my dreams of doing music and being in the music industry…Now some of you will say “Well why don’t you just do it?” and thats a great question but I’m always told that we need to make sure we are set here first and i agree but i feel like I’m going to burst sometimes and do something irrational (like i keep dreaming about walking out of my job and giving them a swift and polite F YOU out of the door).

So as i write this, i would love to hear your advice and if any of you have made the big jump and moved somewhere different or far away? or what your thoughts on it are? and if you are reading this feeling the same i ENCOURAGE you to be confident and brave, to not accept leading a normal life and be GREAT, be BOLD and DIFFERENT!, YOU MUST NOT ACCEPT A JOB PURELY FOR THE MONEY YOU MUST LIKE THE JOB!!!!!, You MUST be around people who want you to win and do well!, You must really tune into your surroundings and ask yourself uncomfortable questions sometimes.., See  i want to leave a positive mark on the world and be positive, bring happiness to others and really make a difference and live COMFORTABLY, i want to build something i am proud of and pass on what I’ve learnt and all the mistakes I’ve made that i wish my parents and loved ones would have told me to be careful of etc, But i want you to feel inspired and encouraged by this….i want you to really look deep inside yourself and find your purpose and passion.

Find something you love and that you’re passionate about, find a way to make it into a CAREER for you, take photos, write poems and music, film that video or youtube channel you’ve always wanted, start a fashion line, write a blog, build a business, join that dance class, do that marathon, don’t discourage ANYONE, Be the reason someone wakes up and smiles on a morning, give someone a hug who needs one, tell someone their great, create the life YOU want to live, be the best at whatever it is you love to do. I believe in you and i know we all have greatness within us and i don’t want ANYONE older, younger or the same age to feel the way i feel because its shit and we ALL deserve GREATNESS.

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Your Friend Always,

GS xo

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Purpose…

Well my weekend is over, back to work tomorrow…wishing and hoping for things to change, for work to actually improve and for things to get better and have that feeling of moving forward but sometimes i need to take a step back and really look at things.

I can’t go into details but i can honestly say I’ve seen and I’ve been through some shit, some dark dark places and times in my life but looking back from where i am today, in this very moment I’ve moved forward. Ive had ZERO confidence/self esteem, I’ve had NO money I’ve dealt with a lot of difficult personal demons where at times I’ve punished myself for things that have happened to me or around me.

The beauty of life is the comeback, and the realisation of a purpose. A purpose of knowing where you’re going, what you dream and desire, of you what you truly want in life wether its money a new job your favourite music album or a family with children etc, we all have a dream and we all have shit days and have amazing days and its how you deal with all of it. Take time to truly appreciate all the obstacles you go through and also take a moment not to be so harsh on yourself…Don’t be thinking NEW YEAR NEW ME, start today! take control of your surroundings and be sure to invest time and money into YOURSELF.

If you want to do something GO DO IT!, who cares what other people think?, be unique and stand out from the crowd.

I may be rambling on but I’m just getting off my chest what I’m thinking and if it helps someone or you can resonate with it the please reblog it or comment! i love knowing what you all think and what you experience. Its comforting to know theres good people out there and that we all understand from every and any point of view.

FIND YOUR PURPOSE.

Your Friend Always,

G.S x

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In Love By Now….

I’m supposed to be in love by now, by now
It’s been so long for me, I don’t know how, by now
Been drowning in the sea of broken vows, by now
But I’m supposed to be in love by now, by nowI’ve been chasing my dream, I’ve been chasing you
Running hard but my legs feel weak
I done played every part, I done played a fool
Write the movie, I’ll be your lead

Cause I’m supposed to be in love by now, by now
Well girl you stole my heart now take a bow, by now
In love by now
Well I’m supposed to walk you down the aisle, by now
Change your name and make your parents smile, by now
Leave the Church, make plans to celebrate, by now
A big old house and babies on the way, by now

I’ve been chasing my dream, I’ve been chasing you
Running hard but my legs feel weak
I done played every part, I done played a fool
Write the movie, I’ll be your lead

Well I’m supposed to be in love today, by now
Go through my phone and throw ’em all away, by now
In love by now
Without your love, I want what they say when they write my stories
Without your touch, I’ll never know how it feels to fly
Drown in my emotions, now it’s all on me
Eyes are finally open to love I couldn’t see
Can’t wait ’til I can say bless the day you landed in my arms

I’m supposed to be in love by now
I’m supposed to be in love by now
In love by now….

GS x

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The Proposal…

Lyrics:

If we can’t be happy, can we at least, pretend?
Even if you cannot love me, can you at least just tell me it?
Ain’t that what they all do anyway?, yeah, they kiss each other on the face
They call each other bae, when deep down inside all they feel is pain

So we might as well get married cause ya so sick of me already
You want me to leave already, so hard to believe already, already, already
We might as well get married cause we’re arguing already
You hate my guts already, fell outta love already, already, might as well get married, turn the lights on

Lets smile at each other, so we can please our friends
Cause we both know just how much you care bout impressing them
Cause ain’t that what couples do anyway?, they lie right in each others face
And they call each other bae, when deep down inside all they feel is pain

So we might as well get married cause ya so sick of me already
You want me to leave already, so hard to believe already, already, already
We might as well get married cause we’re arguing already
You hate my guts already, fell outta love already, already, might as well get married, turn the lights on

I buy you a house so you can kick me out
Take my ass to court and tell the judge what I’m ’bout
Don’t forget to tell the kids that they Daddy ain’t shit
Look at how he did ya Momma out there with that outta bitch

Cause we’re arguing already
Fell outta love already, already, might as well get married

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Stronger….

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Just want to thank you to all my followers and friends of WordPress for making me stronger, for having the patience, the love, the comments all the views and the likes of my posts! I’m glad you enjoyed them! At 4000 and 5000 I’m going to do 2 posts that will be a little Q&A and Facts you want to know about me ! So start leaving your questions or things you want to know in the comments and Email me! GentlemanSparks@Gmail.com …

Stay Strong

Love Always

G.S x

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Mr Everything…

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“Aint life so cruel when you’re just not good enough?, aint life so cruel when theres someone else she loves”

Some of us have our idea of “Mr or Mrs Everything” but they don’t really exist. You see you have to look for qualities in a partner like they’re potentially your LIFE MATE, that you’re gunna grow old and develop with, someone who will IMPROVE YOU, will make you feel like a man/woman and will compliment you’re every move and thought.

We spend so much time (more ladies than men) really criticising men what we don’t do and not focusing on what we do do right. I’m not saying EVERY lady does this but it’s some kind of social thing, I have a friend at work, she’s a lovely girl, she’s polite, friendly with guys but not flirty but she ALLLLLLLLWAAAAYYYYSSSS complains about her man, and I even tell her if he’s so rubbish/miserable etc why are you still with him sharing a house and sleeping in the same bed? Is she comfortable? Scared she won’t find someone else or “better”? You tell me, and I’ve talked to so many women who say how much they love their man BUT he plays too much xbox or he spends too much time with his friends or he doesn’t go to the gym! So many couples say all this behind one another’s back but won’t say it to their partner

I’ve been on the recieving end of this many times in respects of what I do and don’t do and I realised that for the amount of time I spent in my relationships I’ve not really felt like a MAN, I’ve been made to feel stupid, useless, untrustworthy, incapable of something and my favourite unintelligent and not “good enough”

This isn’t a rant post at all, just I guess abit of closure and forgiveness that I’m not perfect, I fuck up, infact I mess up so much that it’s a blessing because I’m wise, I’m humble, polite, I like talking and listening to people, I’ve never been someone who puts himself first but I’m investing time in myself more now.

I’ve spent the past 2 years torturing myself and literally wasting my life and time because of what happened (see recent posts new followers) and it’s not fair, no one should do that! I rejected all the love and help that was given to me, it’s crazy that you let someone do that to you, maybe I love too deeply maybe I care too much but it’s who I am, I go all in I give it every inch and fibre of my body that I can and it’s not paid off, but that’s life, you fail and mess up and you’ve just gotta grow from it, it doesn’t mean I’m gunna be dating and sleeping with tonnes of women I’m just gunna get my priorities right and learn from it, if I grow old on my own then let’s have it! I’ll just enjoy my life for what it is and will be!

Losing Scarlett has sucked and still sucks at times but MY life is about ME, and I say it like riding a train, some of you will ride the train with me(and some would even ride the bus) but some of you will get de railed and only want to ride the limo with me, remove negative people from your life, remove poison from your life….

Forgive yourself, be strong, be happy, work through that bucket list you’ve always wanted to do, fuck up, make mistakes and learn from them and grow!

You GROW through what you GO through! – times a healer

How do I know? Because 2 years ago around this time I was crying everyday for about a year after that and what else? I didn’t sleep properly I couldn’t eat, diagnosed with depression, couldn’t go 5 seconds without thinking about something that turned my insides inside out or that made my heart feel like it was being repeatedly stabbed! What do I feel now? Scars that are healing into scar tissue, a body and mind that is getting stronger and confidence and trust in who I am,

Will I love again? Will me and Scarlett get back together? Will my career take off? Will I move away? Will I achieve what I want in life? Who knows but it’s gunna be one hell of a journey…..

You coming with me?

I love you all, always.

Your Friend,

G.S x

P.S email me or drop me a comment! I don’t like feeling that I’m talking to myself I hope my posts help someone out there like some have yours have.

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