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Purpose…

Well my weekend is over, back to work tomorrow…wishing and hoping for things to change, for work to actually improve and for things to get better and have that feeling of moving forward but sometimes i need to take a step back and really look at things.

I can’t go into details but i can honestly say I’ve seen and I’ve been through some shit, some dark dark places and times in my life but looking back from where i am today, in this very moment I’ve moved forward. Ive had ZERO confidence/self esteem, I’ve had NO money I’ve dealt with a lot of difficult personal demons where at times I’ve punished myself for things that have happened to me or around me.

The beauty of life is the comeback, and the realisation of a purpose. A purpose of knowing where you’re going, what you dream and desire, of you what you truly want in life wether its money a new job your favourite music album or a family with children etc, we all have a dream and we all have shit days and have amazing days and its how you deal with all of it. Take time to truly appreciate all the obstacles you go through and also take a moment not to be so harsh on yourself…Don’t be thinking NEW YEAR NEW ME, start today! take control of your surroundings and be sure to invest time and money into YOURSELF.

If you want to do something GO DO IT!, who cares what other people think?, be unique and stand out from the crowd.

I may be rambling on but I’m just getting off my chest what I’m thinking and if it helps someone or you can resonate with it the please reblog it or comment! i love knowing what you all think and what you experience. Its comforting to know theres good people out there and that we all understand from every and any point of view.

FIND YOUR PURPOSE.

Your Friend Always,

G.S x

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In Love By Now….

I’m supposed to be in love by now, by now
It’s been so long for me, I don’t know how, by now
Been drowning in the sea of broken vows, by now
But I’m supposed to be in love by now, by nowI’ve been chasing my dream, I’ve been chasing you
Running hard but my legs feel weak
I done played every part, I done played a fool
Write the movie, I’ll be your lead

Cause I’m supposed to be in love by now, by now
Well girl you stole my heart now take a bow, by now
In love by now
Well I’m supposed to walk you down the aisle, by now
Change your name and make your parents smile, by now
Leave the Church, make plans to celebrate, by now
A big old house and babies on the way, by now

I’ve been chasing my dream, I’ve been chasing you
Running hard but my legs feel weak
I done played every part, I done played a fool
Write the movie, I’ll be your lead

Well I’m supposed to be in love today, by now
Go through my phone and throw ’em all away, by now
In love by now
Without your love, I want what they say when they write my stories
Without your touch, I’ll never know how it feels to fly
Drown in my emotions, now it’s all on me
Eyes are finally open to love I couldn’t see
Can’t wait ’til I can say bless the day you landed in my arms

I’m supposed to be in love by now
I’m supposed to be in love by now
In love by now….

GS x

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The Proposal…

Lyrics:

If we can’t be happy, can we at least, pretend?
Even if you cannot love me, can you at least just tell me it?
Ain’t that what they all do anyway?, yeah, they kiss each other on the face
They call each other bae, when deep down inside all they feel is pain

So we might as well get married cause ya so sick of me already
You want me to leave already, so hard to believe already, already, already
We might as well get married cause we’re arguing already
You hate my guts already, fell outta love already, already, might as well get married, turn the lights on

Lets smile at each other, so we can please our friends
Cause we both know just how much you care bout impressing them
Cause ain’t that what couples do anyway?, they lie right in each others face
And they call each other bae, when deep down inside all they feel is pain

So we might as well get married cause ya so sick of me already
You want me to leave already, so hard to believe already, already, already
We might as well get married cause we’re arguing already
You hate my guts already, fell outta love already, already, might as well get married, turn the lights on

I buy you a house so you can kick me out
Take my ass to court and tell the judge what I’m ’bout
Don’t forget to tell the kids that they Daddy ain’t shit
Look at how he did ya Momma out there with that outta bitch

Cause we’re arguing already
Fell outta love already, already, might as well get married

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I’ll Show You…

Lyrics:
My life is a movie
And everyone’s watching
So let’s get to the good part
And passed all the non-sense

Sometimes it’s hard to do the right thing
When the pressures is coming down like lightening
It’s like they want me to be perfect
When they don’t even know that I’m hurting
Cause life’s not easy
I’m not made out of steel
Don’t forget that I’m human, don’t forget that I’m real
Act like you know me, but you never will
There’s one thing I know for sure

I’ll show you
I’ll show you
I’ll show you

I’ve got to learn things
Learn them the hard way
Got to see what it feels like
No matter what they say

Sometimes it’s hard to do the right thing
When the pressures is coming down like lightening
It’s like they want me to be perfect
When they don’t even know that I’m hurting
Cause life’s not easy
I’m not made out of steel
Don’t forget that I’m human, don’t forget that I’m real
Act like you know me, but you never will
There’s one thing I know for sure

I’ll show you
I’ll show you
I’ll show you

Cause life’s not easy
I’m not made out of steel
Don’t forget that I’m human, don’t forget that I’m real
Act like you know me, but you never will
There’s one thing I know for sure
I’ll show you

I’ll show you ……

GS x

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What my crappy jobs taught me…

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There comes a time in your life where you have to do something you don’t want to do, it can be and come in many ways and forms and mine is certainly my job. Answering the phone making calls taking payments receiving very unpleasant comments about my service when I’m just doing my job is daunting, frustrating, tiring and depressing. I’ve even thought about quitting and I’ve been here since the start or December.

I thought it was going to be an adventure I thought the job would have had training, support from colleagues, a room for development and growth and all it’s been is a push into the deep end and guess what?!? I CAN’T SWIM…. Or at least I thought I couldn’t….

We have all had shit jobs, we’ve had shit uniforms and low pay and low wages (this i still have) but there are actual things you can learn from rubbish jobs! And here’s mine…..

1. Retail – Being nice to people you HATE

Serving ungrateful and ignorant customers or seeing people you don’t like when you’re in a rubbish uniform and you’re exposed walking around on a shop floor teaches you a couple of things. That this job isn’t FOREVER, it’s a stepping stone and a test in the water for your next job. Just have faith and patience and save a little bit of money every wage, enjoy the people you work with and be greatful that people are desperately looking for a job. Working in retail taught me that unpredictability is actually a good thing, doing crazy shifts like 6-12 12-10 8-5 different days and doing overtime is actually a good thing because the shifts pass quicker I believe. I learnt that managers are horrible to you because they’re power hungry and that if you ever work your way to the top of the ladder sometimes you gotta give your colleagues a break. Some are going through hell and back out of work so stop worrying for 1 second if the shelf is empty or tidy and concentrate on building better rapport and morale In your workplace.

2. Office Job

Working 8:30-5PM is not fun, its actually horrible, i sit there and i just think minute by minute my youth is disappearing and i regret the freedom and the time i had from my shitty retail job gave me i should have been more productive and its no excuse but having depression and not wanting to even move let alone do anything productive didn’t help. This job has given me more money, to buy a mac, to pay for singing lessons, to save up and I’ve learnt to be more organised and more switched on day by day. I realised i became a bit of a zombie in my retail job, this job i do now is quite hard and frustrating and one thing that you could easily forget to mess up an engineers day. My boss treats me and everyone with respect, the atmosphere is relaxed, theres room for mistakes and growth, i dress well, my phone manner and everything has improved. I can understand why people stay in these kind of jobs but at the same time i just don’t get it, i am all for working but i believe in finding a passion, waking up everyday and not feeling like work, the big slump out of bed to turn alarm off and desperately grabbing an extra few mins because you had a late night worrying about your job and who needs calling first thing or what your boss will say. DO SOMETHING YOU LOVE. Im literally doing this job to save up and travel and put towards my music, a year of this struggle might help me have a few years of LIFE of adventure and happiness.

Don’t settle. Dream big. Love and Laugh.
Your Friend,

GS x

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Holiday Blues… 

  

Well I’ve just returned from my holiday in a country in Europe and I’m very fortunate that my father owns an apartment there and the flights are cheap so I can travel there!, but spending 8 days there has been one hell of a holiday. 

From playing volleyball at 1am on the beach to long walks, drinks, meeting new people, singing in front of people to exploring new places, these 8 days have been so interesting and fun and now I’m back home, back to the small town mentality, back to the 9-5 KPI, target watching job that’s easy but unfulfilling.

This holiday has made me realise that you need to build a life so good that you don’t need to take a vacation from, or build a life at home that’s so good that when you are on vacation and you return that you aren’t dreading going back, instead you come back with a sense of purpose and ready to take on the world! 

Also I realised that being single for so long kinda made me wish I had someone to share the experience with and how I do miss being with someone but I know that you can’t rush love, you can’t rush things and meeting people. Everything takes time 🙂 

Go travel, see the world, see what’s out there, be brave and be bold, don’t be normal, normal sucks. Change your routine, change your mind and change your life. I’m still on the road to self discovery, to self fulfilment and towards my dream also. 

Just wanted to post and check in with you guys! 

Your Friend,

Gs x

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Days go by…


It’s been a while since I’ve posted anything up, and to be honest I used my blog as a way of venting, and I knew I wouldn’t be judged and that we all have our stories, and I know most people would think I’m mad if they knew that this existed, but I needed this blog and it’s crazy how writing helps you let go and set free demons, wether it’s poetry, storytelling, songwriting, blogging I think we all need that vent or that somewhere or someone to confide in. You guys know how rough my road has been and I’ve only shared a very small part but I’ve been thinking today about my life

Where I am in my life, where I want to be, wanting to find love again, finding a stable career, building a future that someone can enjoy with me, I feel like we should all have that infectious addictive, gut and heart wrenching love , I believe it warms up our soul and truly ignites something inside ourselves.

I want to travel the world and see everything that’s out there, I want to provide for my mum and look after those whose looked after me, I just felt inspired from watching something today to use my blog and my voice as a positive tool for the world.

You can’t just sail through life, you have to control it, if there’s someone you like tell them!!! Stop waiting for the perfect moment because there’s never a perfect moment!, hug that someone in your life and appreciate what you have.
Make someone smile today.

Don’t let the days go by…
Your Friend,
GS x

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